Rise and shine convince myself not to blow 10 to the face
and slowly catch a nod while numb and never wake up again
take a small step back and realize just what i am
self pity, pathetic, using drugs as surrogate friends

Do you ignore the fact or am I that good at hiding it
hear you mention my name and im reaching for the 10

you were right all along theres no one else but me
perhaps thats the reason that im feeling so lonely (ego of a fucking god yet lacking self esteem)
drag my body back to class with my guts spilled on the floor
meekly step around mess as you're headed for the door

do you ignore the fact or am i that good at hiding it?
i know you're trying to be nice but you need to fucking quit

cause its so fucked up when you smile at me
oh yeah its so fucked up when you smile at me
and i could do with out all this sympathy
its so fucked up when you smile at me
and now it hurts too much when you say my name
oh yeah it hurts too much when you say name
and now Im so fucked up from what you've done to me
when you smile at me, when you smile at me

follow you back home and then I'll wait for you to come back outside
stab you in the chest with the knife you left in mine
body under my bed i pull it out from time to time
pray to it for forgiveness it was the only way i'd survive

Do you ignore the fact or am I that good at hiding it?
I put my hands on your face and I force your lips to bend